In the Hand of God
Who has saved us and called us with a holy calling, not according to our works, but according to His own purpose and grace which was given to us in Christ Jesus before time began. 2 Timothy 1:9 NKJV
What has God called you to do? Do you even feel that God calls each of us to a task? I remember the process during my teenage years of trying to decide what it was that I wanted to do with my life. I listened as many of my friends discussed their own journeys of trying to determine what path they wanted to choose for their future. Each generation encourages the next to decide what it is that "they want to do with their lives".
As I reflect on my own life and as I look at my own two children who are nearing these very same milestones, I realize that this is not at all what we need to be encouraging. I have learned in my forties that the correct question was not what I wanted to do with my life. The question should have been and always be, "What does God want me to do with the life He has given me?"
Jeremiah 29:11 tells us that God has plans for us in order to give us a future and a hope. God has created each of us to serve a divine appointment. He has equipped each of us with spiritual gifts, not as a gift for us, but a gift for us to give to others. God's call on our lives is in no way dependent upon our own works or capabilities. God isn't impressed by human capabilities and talents. God looks for willingness.
God has a dream for my life that goes beyond anything that I could have dreamed for myself. All the events thus far in my life have been preparing me for His plan. He has a message that He has created for me to tell the world out of my own unique experiences. I can choose not to follow the dream and believe that someone else will do it, but the dream was created for my life. Yes, God can use someone else, but He meant for it to be received from me. It is why He put me here. I was born to serve God's purposes for my generation.
So why are you here? What is the message God plans to give the world through you? Thinking someone else can do it better? No, they can't because the dream God has placed in your heart to dream is the dream He created for you. No one else can do exactly what God has called you to do. It's your mission should you choose to accept it. And if you choose to let it go, you miss the dream God has dreamed just for you.
And so in the last few months, I have come to realize that God has placed me where I am, in the places I am, with the people I am with, in order to prepare me for the journey. I have been reading a book by Jennie Allen entitled, Restless Because You Were Made For More. I have began to identify all the threads in my life, my spiritual gifts, my people, my places, my sufferings, and my passions. I have presented all the threads I have to the Great Tailor. I have asked Him to take my threads as offerings and to teach me how He can help me to weave them into a beautiful tapestry for His glory.
I am in a period of waiting. He is getting me ready while I discover the dream. I don't know what all of it consists of, but I have been told part of it and it is more than I could have dreamed for myself. It isn't anything for my glory or to help me personally, but it is for Him and for those around me. The more I start to see the how the threads could come together, the more amazed I am. Things that I never thought mattered were actually preparing me for what was to come.
The process hasn't been a fast one, and I am very much still here in a hallway full of closed doors waiting to see what He will open. It is lonely in the hallway. Sometimes you wonder if He heard you decide to accept the dream, and if He's coming back soon to show you where to step first. But I am learning to praise God in the hallway. I am also learning to be excited that the God who created the universe also created a dream just for me. It isn't just any dream either. It is the reason He created me and put me where I am. He chose me for it. Think about that....the God of the Universe chose you for a specific purpose. What will the world miss if you choose not to dream the dream?