We should know next week what it is...our current unknown. But it is already known to You. You are already there on the other end of this week seeing what we can't. So before we get there, before we learn what it is we don't know right now, I want to tell you what is on my heart.
God, the past two years have changed who You are to me. I have learned to give You my everything. The tighter I cling, the more it hurts as it is torn from my grasp. You are my all in all...my everything...my heavenly Daddy.
But God, this relationship I have with You stemmed from my relationship with him. I remember always feeling safe when he was near. He wasn't the strongest man around or the toughest, but I never doubted that he could and would protect me. I was his baby girl and he would die to save me...just like You did.. I remember hiding beside the piano at someone's house during an argument and holding my ears. The next thing I know, I felt him tap me on the head and when I looked up, he lifted me in his arms and carried me away to a more peaceful place. How many times have You done the same thing for me...carrying me away from the storm? I never wondered if he loved us or my mama. I never wondered if he would be there. He was my daddy and I never considered him being anywhere else other than where I needed him to be. You are the same.
So God, I'm asking you to protect this man you chose to raise me. He is afraid. The tears are always too close to the surface. Please give him peace. Let him know that no matter what we learn this week, that You are in charge. Nothing can touch him unless You allow it. I pray you will give him comfort in a way we can't. Give him peace that passes all understanding.
God, I know I need to ask for Your will and I want to, but God, the reality is that I am selfish. I don't want to let him go yet. I want him to enjoy retirement now that he has finally gotten here. I want my kids to hang onto their last grandfather for awhile longer. I want to keep my daddy.
So God, I'm asking first for good news this week. But if it's bad news, I pray for healing, comfort, and peace. I'm asking that You take care of my daddy who always took care of me and who taught me to love my Heavenly Daddy. I also want to thank You for choosing me to be his...because that helped me choose to be Yours.